Have you ever had so much you need to do but you just cannot find the motivation to do any of it? That's kind of where I have been since February....going through the motions every day but not really doing anything that I'm supposed to....including this blog. I sit down to do it and just do not feel like talking. I have my coupons neatly in a stack (I have even cut them out now) but I just don't care enough to sort them...much less shop with them. My house needs to be cleaned but I've just done enough to scratch the surface.
I guess I have accomplished one thing. The garden is planted! Actually, I have several garden areas and they are all planted and I'm waiting, impatiently, for things to start sprouting. I love being outside and hate coming in. I have enjoyed playing with the chickens, tilling the garden, planting the seeds, even weeding but I seem to shut down as soon as I come inside.
I guess this is a side effect of losing Grandmother, my dog, my neighbor. Maybe it is a huge case of spring fever? Whatever it is, I hope it passes soon. I have a lot to do!
Today at lunch I tried to explain to Michael how sometimes I feel so overwhelmed by things on my "supposed-to-do" list that I become paralyzed. I think this is a trait of the perfectionist. The thinking is that if we can't get it all done, we just won't do any of it.
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